“‘Who am I if I am not the me that I watch trying to be me?’
This sentence has been with me since my teen years when I first knew my suffering. I wanted to dance on tables, but felt bound to a chair. There was something inside me that couldn’t get out. Today, I know it’s my soulful me.
I didn’t know then that I had a protective self, created early in my life to keep me safe. Very slowly, over years I came to know these aspects. I basically watched my life play out in ways I didn’t like, and all of this came to a head when my son was born.
Though I had done a lot of spiritual and therapeutic work, the me that expressed sometimes was clearly not me. I painfully watched that me for almost ten years, trying to heal away this “other me,” until I found the work that Edenity represents today.
Stace, my beloved husband, had carved out a worldview and dharma that ultimately supports the new era of yin, emotion, and love as essence as opposed to the patriarchally distorted yang, will, and mind era that is phasing out. I intuitively felt its truth and found home, with a mirror big enough for souls like you and me, who’ve worked on ourselves in other ways but didn’t educe the soulful, loving self that is behind our conditioned protective walls.
Now, things begin to change. It’s been a long, stony path with many ups and downs, mirrors and horrors, joy and pain, goodness and shame. My involvement in this dharma grew and, as a certified facilitator, I looked deeper into the way the dharma itself had to change.
After shocking life events held up a big mirror to both of us, we found what needed to change and how to change it. We now offer a path to embody this “hidden me” that lives like a sleeping beauty in all of us, covered over by what the world taught us to be, but never truly were.
In my work with people, I am so deeply touched by those moments when someone experiences the tragic difference between the soulful self and the conditioned protective self, without which we could not have survived. This journey of ensoulment, to embody fully the you that is and has always been, but had no chance to live fully, has become my passion. I look forward to touching your hearts and souls in ways that help you come alive on this earth and so experience it as heaven.
The path goes through difficult feelings, not around them. But it is worth it. Thank you, Stace, for paving the way with all the hardship you endured to make a dream come true for all of us who want to walk it.”
Brie Ehret Barron
“At age twenty-four, in the middle of the night, I had a vision of three circles that eventually became the basis of Edenity. But the real story of my life involved how agonally challenging it’s been to actually embody its teachings.
As an older man, I realized how much I floated above the personal human plane and abided with my natural access to Spirit. As a result, I carried what felt like an unsolvable wound. What I felt was real and good about me in Spirit was invalidated by my family and culture. And what was wounded and false about me was made to feel healthy and true. That conflict was so deep I dissociated from the unbearable pain. Like most of us, I survived by becoming over-controlling and willful in my life instead of putting love first.
The wounds associated with that framework caused me to seal off much of my inner humanness from myself and others. To compensate, I focused on expressing my own spiritual values no matter how different they were from traditional teachings. Over the years, I was both fortunately and unfortunately rewarded for those unique spiritual offerings.
I was fortunate because they ultimately became the counter-intuitive metaphysical foundations of Edenity. But the positive attention I gained deepened the distance from my own humanity, and prevented access to my personal unconscious wounding, walling me off further.
Many of us know that we teach best what we most need to learn. Edenity became the crucible to heal my resistance to joining the human race vulnerably. By seeking help from truly gifted people drawn to explore Edenity and facing my obvious wound-based behaviors in my seventeen year marriage with a remarkable woman, the distance between my spiritual wings and my human feet begins to narrow.
One way to describe our collective human suffering is that we’ve been conditioned to split our essential spiritual nature from the humanness of our everyday expressions. It took me almost forty years to realize Edenity was not just a way to help others, but the means for me to first link them in myself.”